Does it ever stop??

I cant go a day without him calling or texting, so today I give in and call. He has lost 15 pounds, hasn't been sleeping, or doing things he loves to do. Awesome. Just when I was starting to heal, he comes back and rips me back open again. I don't understand. I don't get it. I just want to be happy... but apparently thats to much to ask. I'm glad I had someone there holding my hand while I was on the phone with him. It's good to have someone to wipe your tears, even when its hard for them to hear the conversation themselves. Why are things so complicated? Why am I a magnet for drama? I wish things could just be simple, and easy, I wish everyone could get along. UGH! I just want to scream! I hate being the center of this tangle web of mess. Its stupid. I love him, but I don't want to be with him. I like the other guy, but being with him causes to much drama. Happiness anyone? If you find some pass it my way...

Nashville tomorrow to meet my sisters new "love of her life" going with Jami, it should be a blast.

Spring break needs to hurry up..because with it comes my birthday. I pray to God NO DRAMA.